Note: I wrote this a couple of years ago in response to a Patheos writing prompt which asked writers to answer the question of why we have continued to embrace our particular path and where we think that path is headed in the future. It is a question which I continue to revisit periodically, and my answer then still rings true. It is republished here with some minor revisions.
The Problem of Paganism
The question why I am “still” a Pagan implies that there might be reasons why I would not want to identify as Pagan any longer. And there are. I believe that Paganism has the potential to transform our relationship with the earth, with each other, and with our deeper selves—but a lot of the time, I cannot relate to other Pagans.
My seasonal allergies mean that at those times of the year I most want to be surrounded by nature, it is difficult, and sometimes impossible, to do so. This irony is a metaphor for an essential conflict at the core of my psyche, between the desire for communion with nature on the one hand and the desire to transcend nature on the other.